Monday, September 9, 2013

I'm Overwhelmed...

Hi y’all. It’s been awhile.  I hope everyone had a wonderful Labor Day.  I’ve had an incredibly busy few weeks.  I have three jobs now that school is back in so I haven’t stopped working for more than a few hours at a time.  I’ve also occupied my time with fun things.  I’ve been to Chattanooga, the beach and I’ve hung out with friends and family.  I am overwhelmed.  I’m overwhelmed in different ways.  I’m tired because of all of the work and traveling but I’m also overwhelmed with all of the positive things I have in my life.  I’ve been so incredibly frustrated by my inability to lose weight lately.  I’m tired mentally and physically which inevitably means I eat more but it’s so frustrating when I’m well-behaved most of the time and exercise at least 6 days a week.  I asked my doctor today.  I have hypothyroidism.  I’ve had it for years, actually. I know that people blame their thyroid for being overweight all the time.  I’m not one of those people.  I managed to lose over 100 pounds with an inactive thyroid.  However, the doctor told me today that my thyroid does “absolutely nothing.”  He is kind of baffled by the fact that my medicine is at a very high level and nothing has ever changed in my blood work.  He said that is contributing to the difficulty I’m having.  He also said that it would only get harder as time goes on.  He basically tried to say I’m getting old and it’s not going to get better.  I’m going to suck it up (even though I know I just whined here) and press forward.  I’m going to concentrate less on the number on the scale.  I’ve decided to weigh once a month and see how that goes.  I get extremely hung up on numbers.  I’m also going to stick more closely to the plan that I have, especially on the weekends.  Lastly, I need to go to bed earlier.  I’m not getting nearly enough sleep.   I operate most efficiently when my life is completely structured.  Every minute of my day needs to be planned and have a purpose.  That’s just how I function and this year I’ve struggled to maintain that.  It’s a daily battle, y’all.  Don’t give up.  I’m not going to. 

I participated in another Color Run on Saturday with Cassandra and some coworkers.  It was fun time as usual.  I didn’t really measure the time because it was a fun run and when I run I have to focus in order to maintain a pace for a long time.  It’s hard to do that when you are running with other people.  That’s totally fine, though.  It was worth it to have fun with other people.  I am actually training for a 10K now.  I downloaded an app and I’m on week 9 of a 14 week program that ends in (hopefully) having the ability to run a 10K without stopping which is about 6.2 miles.  I run 3 days a week.  I never thought I’d be able to do it.  I know that some people aren’t able to run due to physical impairments but if you are healthy and have strong legs, I’d give running a try.  If I can do it, you can.  I would highly recommend the Couch to 5K app.  It starts slowly and then progresses.  I went from never running and now I can run for 40-45 minutes without stopping.  I run at turtle speed but I listen to music, clear my mind and get a good workout in the process.  Don’t get me wrong.  It’s still exercise and I could listen to music lying in my bed but in terms of exercise, it’s currently my favorite thing.

As I said, I’ve been coming and going constantly the past few weeks and the pictures above hit the highlights.  I saw Backstreet Boys, went to the beach with Nish and had yummy food and I also included a picture of an example of the beautiful sunrises I’ve been seeing when I get up to run in the mornings.  AND...I'm going to see Mumford & Sons tonight. Life is hard but life is good.

Alabama has a rematch with Texas A&M on Saturday so…


Until next time…

“I can’t sleep tonight
Wide awake and so confused
Everything’s in line
But I am bruised
I need a voice to echo
I need a light to take me home
I kinda need a hero
Is it you?

I never see the forest for the trees
I could really use your melody
Baby I’m a little blind
I think it’s time for you to find me

Can you be nightingale?
Sing to me
I know you’re there
You could be my sanity
Bring me peace
Sing me to sleep
Say you’ll be my nightingale

Somebody speak to me
Cause I’m feeling like hell
Need you to answer me
I’m overwhelmed
I need a voice to echo
 I need a light to take me home
I need a star to follow
I don’t know…” Nightingale-Demi Lovato 

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