Thursday, March 4, 2010

I guess I'll go eat worms (except they are probably too many points)

I am in a pretty foul mood today. I think I finally pinpointed the problem...I didn’t get my morning nap in today. Usually, I get about 30-45 minutes of rest after my workout/shower in the morning but because I had to take my car to the Toyota place to get the recalls fixed, I had to leave my house by 6:45. Also, every time I get on the scale I gain weight. I know this sounds like a tall tale but I really don’t think the scale has it right. If it does, then I’m in trouble because that would mean I’ve gained 19 pounds since Saturday morning. Even though I know I haven’t gained that much weight (I hope), it is still VERY frustrating. It is only Thursday and since Monday, I have exercised 6 times. Also, I haven’t been perfect food-wise but it’s not like I went on a fast food binge...THAT IS JUST REALLY OBNOXIOUS. Whatever, after Paris, I’m going to buckle down and be as exact as possible...even if I have to weigh my food. Some evil menace out there wants me to fail again...just like every other time I’ve tried to diet...well...they can forget it because I am not ready to give up. I feel violent about this...I think I’m supposed to feel inspired but I feel more like I want to punch someone in the face.

But anyway...tonight is trivia night and I plan on forgetting about all that jazz. Plus, tomorrow is Friday and it is Oscar weekend. I have a lot to get in the next few days movie wise and I’m honestly not sure how I’m going to do it all. Between now and Sunday night I need to watch 6 or 7 movies and I still will not have watched them all. I figure if I can get that many in then I will feel accomplished.

I think I’m done talking for the day. I thought about going into this whole rant about church gossip. Evidently, I have a target on my back and the whole world needs to know what weeks I go to church and what weeks I don’t. I feel like I might be wasting my energy if I do that though because I think that even the most dedicated church person knows that you can’t escape the gossip. It’s sad really. I mean there have been 3 deadly earthquakes in a month in this world and people that I don’t know are more concerned about my church attendance. Perhaps this is why people lose faith? Ok-so I guess I did rant about it. I could go on but I will spare you.

I am bound to be in a better mood tomorrow! My car is fixed, tomorrow is Friday and we have 9 days until Paris!!! Have a great night!

“And the air is thin
And it blows through your skin
And you feel like something
Is about to begin
But you don't know what
And you don't know when
So you tear at your hair
And you scratch at your skin

You wanna run away, run away
Just get on the * train and leave today
And it doesn't matter where you spend the night
You just might end up somewhere in a fight, in a fight
Or caught in your room on a concrete shelf
Fighting all alone, with yourself, with yourself
And you just wanna feel like a coin that's been tossed
In a wishing well, a wishing well...

So you stand on the corner
Where the angels sit
And you think to yourself,
"This is it, this is it,
This is all that I have
All I can stand
Is this air in my lungs
And this coin in my hand
That you tossed in the air
And I fell, and I fell
All the way to the bottom
Of the well, of the well
Like those soft little secrets
That you tell, that you tell
To yourself, when you think
No one's listening to, well." Wishing Well-The Airborne Toxic Event

1 comment:

  1. I totally understand your frustration. It's definitely hard. But, just remember all the progress you've made. You really are doing a fantastic job! Oh, and I love the title of this blog!

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