First, I watched Glee last night and it totally lived up to my expectations. Sue Sylvester (Jane Lynch) is hilarious and I LOVE the music. They did a cover of Lionel Richie’s “Hello,” and I have always loved that song so I was happy. Second, I would like to give a shout out/apology to my roommate Cassandra for deleting Brothers & Sisters when she hadn’t finished it. I thought she was through but I should have made absolute sure because deleting someone’s show from the DVR is like saying, “I’m so sorry but I ran over your dog and then peed on your car.” So-I assured her I would be more careful. For the record, she was very cool about it. Third, I would like to give another shout out but this time it’s a big CONGRATS to my friend Nichole. She has accepted an offer to become a Grad/PHD student at CUNY in New York this fall. She’s real smart about history and all that junk. Just kidding...she totally deserves it and even though we will miss her...I’m so excited...I mean what a new and awesome journey! Not to mention the fact that I totally have a floor and/or couch to sleep on if I want to visit New York in the next 7 or so years.
Ok, so this is where you all start to roll your eyes at me. I’ve never been the type to care about my age...then again...I’ve never really needed to...I’m only 25 years old. I don’t have a problem telling people how old I am and I know there is only one alternative but I have to be honest...my 26th birthday is coming up in less than a month and I’m not excited about it. I know it’s stupid...I get it...but I will be closer to 30 than 20 and well...boo. I mean, I realize you can’t stay 22 forever and in theory, I’m on a decent track...I have the degrees I planned for and a job...but I am feeling sort of stagnant right now. When I was in high school, I looked forward to college. In college, I looked forward to grad school...and now...um...because of what society says...I guess I should be looking for a husband. I’ve never really done anything the easy way or what people think the natural order of things should be...that’s just not me. I know that eventually everyone has to grow up and settle into what they are going to be doing...I just didn’t realize it would come up this fast. Honestly, I’m not that stressed about the birthday...just not excited. I remember being a kid and thinking about my birthday months ahead. My brother started planning for his 16th birthday when he was 12. Now, I’m like...meh...I ask for practical stuff and look forward to cake I shouldn’t eat and move on.
Is there a particular birthday year that stressed any of you out? I hear that 30 is the worst...at least I have time before that but I guess the point is that I know it will FLY by. I kind of feel like this is my last chance to lose weight. The doctor will stop saying that I need to lose weight while I’m “still young,” and just be like...good luck with that metabolism thing. Anyway, I know I’m not old and everyone that I’ve told this to sort of scoffs and thinks it’s ridiculous but I should say that I’m not depressed about my age it just feels like something is looming and I can’t figure out what it is...30 can’t be that bad. I will just feel good to get there.
Speaking of feeling old...it’s like I’ve gone backwards in the soreness department after a walk or run. I was doing great and not really suffering but this week is pretty ridiculous...even my ribs hurt. I know I complained about this yesterday...I’m just wondering if I need to get a heating pad or something or if I injured myself. Whatever...I must push forward!
I hope you all have a fantastic night!
what you say
should I stick around for another day or two
don't give up on me,
I won't give up on you
just believe in me like I believe in you
Tell me why on the corner
all the kids that used to come to run here
load the guns here
and tell me why
to kill in the name of the gods we pray.
Tell me who said it's okay
to die in the name of the lies we say.
Tell me why there's child soldiers.
Tell me why they closed the borders.
Tell me how to fight disease
and tell me now won't you please.
The only thing I want to do
is to be in the arms of someone who believes in me
like I believe in you
I try try try try
I try try try try for you
don't give up on me
and I cry cry cry cry
I cry cry cry cry for you
just believe in me
like I believe in you.” Hey World (Don’t Give Up Version)-Michael Franti & Spearhead