Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Overeaters [NOT SO] Anonymous



Hi, my name is Heather and I’m an overeater. (At this point, I hope you are all saying, “Hi Heather,” into your screens.) By the way, that really is a program doing great things if you’re interested, I’m not making fun, I probably could really use it...though I don’t know how one can totally recover...don’t you always need food? Whatever, another blog, another day I suppose. I was doing wonderfully on Monday and all day Tuesday and then last night I was bombarded with a series of appetizers and I indulged. I am SO paying for it today too because my stomach AND back hurt...ugh. I am being good today though. Again, the problem only really arises when there is a spread of food in front of me...I just can’t stop. Having said that though, the food was delicious and I appreciated/enjoyed every bit of it. I am full on again today and plan on going home and eating leftovers and carrying my goodness all the way until Sunday. I feel like I am on a VERY slippery slope right now. Apparently I’m not the only one because 2 other dieters I know right now gained weight last week but I hope I speak for them when I say...NO!!! I MUST hold on! I have to continue...I don’t want to gain...I don’t even want to maintain...I need to be losing so I am going to do my best to recover from last week in the next couple of weeks. I CAN do this! Right?

Aside from my addiction to cheese and dips and bread and all things chocolate, I am doing OK today. I’m not going to beat myself up...I’m just going to continue to work hard. I am still walking like crazy and I won’t let a few bad moments ruin my accomplishments.

Wow-I have to say, I didn’t realize that would go on like that. The other thing I wanted to talk about today may be a little taboo but I promise it will be quick and painless. Yesterday, I went to the doctor...you know...THE doctor that women go to...I went for a check-up. I have three rant-ish/funny things to say about this and then it will be over. A.) I knew I would have to give a urine sample so I purposefully didn’t go to the bathroom before I left for the appointment. When I got there, they had scheduled like 10 people for the same time and same doctor so they kept me waiting an hour. I’m sure I’m not the only one who waits to go to the bathroom...I mean seriously...let’s manage our time a little better. It is already unpleasant being there in the first place and then I had to suffer from the fear that I might actually pee my pants. Also, they later kept me in the actual room buck nekkid waiting on her for 20 minutes...it was bad but luckily the patient bed thing was heated...I almost fell asleep 3 times. B.) I was excited to see how much weight I had lost since my last visit which was in March of 2009. Evidently, I was in my, “I don’t want to even know,” phase because she had it written in her chart that I refused to weigh. It’s kind of funny but I was kind of disappointed so I took it upon myself to tell her how much weight I’d lost anyway. C.) I’ll just say this...when I am in this compromising position...can we just cut the chit chat? I appreciate your quickness and friendly nature but I’d rather not tell you the details of my job while there is a flashlight and stirrups present. I’m just saying.

Ok-that might have been a little much but I thought that I did a good job of watering it down.

I don’t think there is much I can say after that. I know I said last week that there was only one more birthday (which is tomorrow) but I do have two little birthday shout outs today even though they probably won’t see them. First, Happy Birthday to Dave DeGolyer (he and I were in the same graduate program) AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY to KAITLIN PITTMAN!!! Kaitlin is Jordan’s sister and she is 21 today! So, the May birthdays keep on coming.

I hope you all have a great afternoon!!!


“I've never gone with the wind
Just let it flow
Let it take me where it wants to go
Til' you opened the door
And there's so much more
I'd never seen it before
I was tryin' to fly but I couldn't find wings
But you came along and changed everything

You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I
I'm lost in your eyes
You make me Crazier, Crazier, Crazier

I watched from a distance as you
Made life your own
Every sky was your own kind of blue
And I wanted to know how that would feel
And you made it so real
You showed me something that I couldn't see
You opened my eyes and you made me believe

You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I
I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier.” Crazier-Taylor Swift

2 comments:

  1. You CAN do this! You've done so swell so far, and I know you can go farther if you want to!!!

    I appreciated your recap of your doctor's visit. I definitely say it wasn't TMI. It could have been way worse.

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  2. Hi Heather,

    Welcome to OA. Glad you are working the program. I hope you have a sponsor and you're working the 12 Steps. Long term recovery is in the steps, not in a food plan and definitely not in personal will power or self control.

    Good luck!
    Steve

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