Who knew that garlic hummus would be the food temptress of the day? A co-worker of mine brought pita chips and garlic hummus to work and I just had to have some. I am still on the wagon mostly today but I have cut a few corners. I think that the primary reason I am so tempted to cheat is because I haven’t been weighing in. The weekly weigh in is certainly an incentive for me to be good. I think that incentives are pretty crucial. I made the decision not to weigh for a couple more weeks because I wanted a bigger span of time (and a bigger span of my behind apparently) to lose the Christmas/New Year’s weight. The only problem is...I have no incentive to be good until then. I have done really well the past couple of days and I have certainly been getting in my physical activity but I have lost that ability to be strict. Weight Watchers and I no longer have a spark...we are past the honeymoon phase. Just like when this lull happens in a relationship...you have to find a way to reignite the fire that got you there in the first place. Where is that first love that made me lose 50 pounds? I have a few ideas. I would say that first I am getting 5 less points now than when I started. Don’t think that sounds like a lot? Well-That’s a small fry from McDonald’s, a ham & cheese on low calorie wheat bread with Baked Lays, or a grilled Chicken Sandwich from Chick-fil-a. I mean, all of those things could hold you over if you were hungry. Also, like a relationship, I’ve gotten more comfortable around Weight Watchers. I can be around it without make up on-so to speak. What I mean is, instead of weighing my 2 oz of pasta to eat last night, I sort of just...guessed. That defeats the whole purpose.
It doesn’t take a rocket scientist to conclude all that though...the problem that I can’t seem to solve is I don’t know where to find the motivation to keep going. I KNOW I want to lose more weight. I also know how much I love food and lounging around. There lies the crux of the struggle people have encountered in their weight loss journeys since the beginning. I think for me, I need to remember that when I am actually on the elliptical in the morning, I feel good. I feel accomplished when I get off of it or when I up the time because it’s not enough of a challenge anymore. I feel good when I go to bed knowing that I didn’t make any exceptions when choosing my food and adding my points for the day. I feel like a fat craphead when I eat like a hoss or skip exercise for the day. Somehow, these emotions still aren’t enough some days. Any suggestions for incentives? I think I lean WAY too much on cheat day as an incentive. I still want to have it but I don’t want to binge so much I’m sick on that day. I love shopping...I could buy myself a present for every month I do everything right every day but Sunday. The only problem is...I’m trying not to spend like a maniac right now...student loans and all. I will try to figure something out. I also need motivation with work and writing and other things...I get really lazy without incentives and deadlines.
I wanted to give a quick shout out to this site www.partypail.com. If you are interested in ordering party supplies from the net...use them. I ordered balloons for a baby shower at work from this site and on the order form they ask for the date of the event. After I had placed the order, a lady from the site called and because she was worried I wouldn’t get my order in time she is sending it priority without charge since my order was so light. I thought that was really cool.
Trivia tonight...AND I GET TO SEE WHITNEY, XAY & MYA!!! I’m so excited...these are my besties from way back that moved off to the east for a job and they are in town. I posted a pic of their precious little one below. I hope she remembers me! She probably won’t. Babies don’t usually like me.
Oh...and...MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY JORDAN...AND IT HASN’T EVEN BEEN 24 HOURS!